My personal goal of earning a bachelors degree is very important to me because I failed to complete an associate’s degree ten years ago. I know that Interior Design it is going to be a fantastic adventure to experience working with various elements such as fabrics, furniture, and lighting which will open up a whole new world to design and explore.
I feel that it is imperative to always have a goal and to stay committed and focused no matter how long or turbulent the road is to achieve it. I know that I am a great example of personal strength and perseverance. I will complete my bachelor’s degree online in seven years from now which may be a long road for some, but well worth the struggle.
February 2008 - Posts
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I have been pretty bummed out since Tuesday when I found out that I didn’t get my dream job. It’s been hard to deal with the rejection, but their loss. I am sure that they found someone that could start right away unlike my situation where I am stuck for another month. It would have been perfect it if all feel into place. Work would have only been two to three miles from where we want to build. I feel like I am a disappointment to my husband who has been so excited that we started the process to have our own home. I feel like our dreams crashed on me so hard, all at once.
I am really trying to keep my head up, but it is really difficult. I have sent out 15 resumes, mostly in areas where I will have to commute an hour back and forth. I told my husband that if he started schooling that he is interested in, that we wouldn’t be stuck in this area. Neither of us has really explored the state of Florida much and don’t need to stay in Daytona, we don’t have family or ever see the beach. We have so many more opportunities if we moved out of this repressed area. I got really lucky working at Tropic, and know that I will have to take a cut both in salary and seniority if we stay. If my husband attended school, we would be able to go anywhere and find a better paying opportunity than he currently has. I think I finally have him convinced that it’s for the best to choose an online curriculum verses a campus and commute with gas prices and time being hard to find at times. I guess the certification that he wants only takes five to six months to achieve. His current job has its benefits of brining a company vehicle home and all expenses are paid, but there is no growth potential either in position or pay. Everyone needs to grow.
I officially have 30 days left on the job so I am starting to get nervous about what the next chapter is for me. I tend to get scared of the unknown and panic, and I am officially in panic mode since I didn’t get that job. Wouldn’t it be great if they called me back and said that the person they chose decided not to take the position or that they didn’t work out?
I try to keep telling myself, that there is a better opportunity out there somewhere for me, maybe it will get us out of this area and we will have a better future.
School is still going great, just finished week two. This class is sooo easy and doesn’t require a lot of my time which is always appreciated. I actually was able to veg out on the couch last night. :)
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Monday I went back to work after the surgery, was it tough for me the early part of the week. I still didn’t feel good, very tired and out of it, but things got better as the week went on. I was really busy with designing a logo for the next big Miss Hawaiian Tropic International Pageant and had to create 28 web pages in a day for our spring break section on the website. I also got and had the big interview that I was hoping for, I am just waiting for a response or answer if they want me. Or daughter went to a slumber party last night, and it was great to have a break from her. I sat and worked on my website to get it updated and refreshed. I also wanted a more professional site incorporating both my business and a portfolio now that I will need it while looking for a job. I really hope that everything works out and I get this position, it is a pretty big deal for me. I was afraid that it would be a big downfall that I am contracted at HT until the end of March, but surprisingly, I was asked if I would be interested in working freelance for them until I could be full time in the office. The best of both worlds! My husband and I have been thinking about buying a home. We have decided to do new construction and are very excited. We just did the prequalification part of the entire process to see if we are out of our minds. We will have to wait about a month and a half to buy it until my career transition is complete. I hope, hope, hope.. that I get the job. We found the lot and the home we want and we have so many good things happening financially that the fact of finding work right away would make our dream happen. I have never been so excited and scared at the same time, I guess it’s kind of like getting married, a big leap.
I am on my second week of speech, and the class is such a breeze. It hasn’t required a lot of time which has been a blessing too. It is refreshing once in a while to get a class like this that is a breeze, it helps keep you going. You are still taking a class, but it is also a break from a labor intensive class.
Other than that, the surgery went well, it was very painful, but I think successful… my husband says that I am not snoring anymore and I can breathe much better now. I had a little swelling and bruising, but you can’t even tell I had surgery. The stitches up the inside of my nose bother me, but they are pretty much dissolved now.
Time to work on homework!
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Today is my first day back to work after the surgery. I am sore and crabby. I also am five days smoke free which is probably one of the reasons that I am so irritable. I am tired and still recovering and healing, it will take a few weeks before I am back to normal. My husband says that I don’t snore anymore and my breathing is better so I guess the surgery was successful. The stitches are bugging me and the pain is still very intense. I gave up the pain killers on Saturday to come out of the haze and help get myself clear headed again for work and school. I worked ahead and finished my final before the surgery. I also got a jump start on my second session class which is speech before the surgery; I didn’t know how long I would be down for the count. I ended up finishing my Development and Theory of Form class with a final grade of an A and an A on my final project which was creating a chair out of corrugated cardboard which supported the weight of 200 lbs. My current class of Speech seems like it will be pretty easy if I can overcome the fear of giving speeches. The homework assignments are a breeze so far. Surprisingly, there are quite a few students that reside in Florida, which is a first for me. Everyone is a new name for me to learn, and seem pretty interesting after reading their bios. It is exciting meeting a new group to learn and work with; I did enjoy having familiar faces in my classes throughout the year and a half for me. I have to do my first speech today for homework. I have to give a two minute impromptu on my favorite Birthday, Christmas or holiday. I really don’t have a favorite to recall and share with the class, my past Christmas was the worst on record for the family. I haven’t decided what I will speak about yet. My birthday was last week and I had the surgery the day after… mmm I will think about it this afternoon.
Surprisingly when I came back to work today, I had a ton of stuff to do. I keep reminding myself to do what I can, take my time and do it right instead of feeling overwhelmed and perhaps make mistakes on my work. My head still isn’t right from the pain. I don’t know if it is the meds to quit smoking, tiredness from my body healing, or the anesthesia still in my system. For the past four days since the surgery, all I did was sleep. I could use a nap now, but I will keep my head up and try to make it through a whole day at work.
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Two days to go until my surgery. I have worked ahead with my assignments and only have my final project to submit for my class- Theory and Development of Form. I really haven’t enjoyed this class, just kind of drudged through it because it is required for my degree. I have also jumped into my session II class of speech that starts the day after the big day. I don’t know when I will feel up to it to sit in front of the computer to do homework so I have already read my required two chapters and lecture for this week and will start on the assignments this afternoon.
I am planning on taking the rest of the week off from work and may need to extend it if I am not feeling good enough to drive myself in. I regret taking any additional time off from the office because I won’t get paid and the loss of income could make things financially tough for us.
Over the weekend, my husband took me out to my favorite restaurant to celebrate my birthday early. I love getting all dressed up for a special occasion once in a while.
Work, well the situation hasn’t changed. I haven’t heard anything in regards to an extension to my contract yet, but who knows how that will turn out. I don’t even know if I would want to stay to be honest, I could definitely use a break from the daily routine of a job.
A few friends of mine have decided to get married at the end of May and have asked me to update her existing home to make it their home and to also put up for sale. The house is about twenty five years old and needs a loving touch to freshen things up. I am thrilled and honored that they have asked me. I went over to the house on Saturday and sat down and learned of their concerns and expectations. I took photos of every room and need to start to formulate a plan and a budget for the entire project – inside and out. It’s a lot of work, but it also could be very fun. It would be great if I was out of work and had more time to dedicate to the cause. It will be very difficult to juggle work, business, school and this on the side. I guess its good practice for me to do it.
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This week has been off to a weird start for me. First of all, I have a week left of class, and I am doing very well, hooray! The bad news is that I went to the doctor on Monday and found out that I need surgery and I have already set it up for next week.
When I came home from work today, I received a wonderful surprise. I applied for an awesome job (I mailed out a resume on Friday) and got a response today already asking for a few samples of my web design work. Wow, I think that is the fastest response I have ever had searching for a job. God, did that make me feel on top of the world! The tough part for me is that I don’t know if I should reschedule my surgery and wait for a call for an interview. I am kind of embarrassed by what the scope of the surgery is – I have to get cartilage removed from my nose which will remedy the sinus issues that I have had for years along with the ear infection that I have had for over a month. I am not scared at all by the procedure, but I am scared that I will get the call to come in for the interview and will have bruising on my face. Here is another dilemma, if I get offered the job, do I take it for the sake of a steady paycheck and job and lose my nice severance and retention bonus that I will get in a month and a half? I would have a big decision to make. My family is really excited for me to have gotten a fast email response from this employer, it’s a huge company and probably more pay. We have been thinking of purchasing a home, but have been trying to put it off to wait and see where I will find a position once I am released from Hawaiian Tropic and if we will have to relocate to a different city for my skills.
My birthday is next week the 12th and is the day before the surgery, which is also my finals and then Valentine’s day which is also the first day of my Speech class- so that pretty much blows the idea of any fun for me. I personally don’t care because we will be stuck at the house all weekend due to the big Pepsi race in Daytona. I am personally looking forward to having a five day weekend and some time to rest with everything being so busy for me right now. Wish me luck at keeping my sanity over the next week and a half!
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