NOW THAT MY YOUNGEST IS 19YR OLD I REALIZE THAT I NEED TO GO FOR MY DREAMS OF GOING BACK TO SCHOOL AND TRAVELING. I HAVE HAD MANY FEARS IN LIFE AND BEING ALONE IS ONE OF THEM.. i GUEST THAT'S WHY I TEACH SCOOL NOW BECAUSE I WANT TO BE NEED. I HAVE FAITH IN GOD THAT MY STEPS ARE ORDERED BY HIM AND I'M GOING TO MAKE IT. THERE WERE TIMES THAT I WAS MAD BECAUSE I HAD THE CHILDREN AND LIFE WAS HARD AND MY EX-HUSBAND HAD THE EASY PART OF BEING A PARENT. IN MY GROWING PAINS I FOUNDED STRENGHT FROM A SOURCE THAT HAS NEVER LET ME DO. I SAY ALL THIS TO ENCOURAGE OTHERS THAT NOTHING IS TO BAD TO JUST "QUIT" BECAUSE THAT'S NOT A OPTION IN LIFE, YOU LIVE OR DIE AND THERE IS NO DEBATE ABOUT THAT. I LAUGHT, I LIVE AND I LOVE LIFE AS A DAILY PROCCESS, IT'S NEW EVER DAY.